My healing journey
All of our stories are different and that’s what makes life so beautiful. I was born and raised in Roseville, CA. I grew up in a very chaotic family. There was constant fighting, a blended family, etc. I moved around a lot but somehow managed to stay within the same school district so that was nice and gave me some sense of stability. I loved to be anywhere but home. I spent most of my days at school, soccer practice, at friends houses, or tucked away in my room. I was too young to know about attachment styles and love languages. Society doesn’t exactly teach these things either. It wasn’t until I graduated with my bachelors in Human Development and Family Studies that I truly discovered we only know what we know. Our parents and family do the best they can with what they know. The problem comes when people are so closed minded they don’t want to learn about new aspects. They don’t want to step outside of their comfort zones to step into their highest divine self.
Hi, I'm Megan
Vulnerability
High school was filled with eating disorders(anorexia and bulimia), I started cutting, had multiple suicide attempts, and this was also when I was sexually assaulted by my boyfriend at the time. I lost my entire soul after the assault. I was only a Junior in high school. I was then assaulted again by a friends boyfriend. My recovery was filled with slut shaming, victim blaming, and feeling completely misunderstood by those around me. Fast forward to my freshman year of college is when my healing journey began. I was noticing that the symptoms and causes from my assault were literally taking over my life. The PTSD, dissociation, creating bad sexual cycles, lack of boundaries, unwillingness to say no when I wanted to say yes(loss of my voice), etc. I decided to speak with the victims advocate at my college who helped me rediscover my voice. I was able to share my story to one of my classes and it was honestly life changing. This is what carved my way to my now soul purpose. I knew my experiences did not define me and I was meant to share them with others. I felt called to make a difference in this world. I struggled to find the right resources, providers, friends, and partners. I was meant to be the voice for other survivors who did not yet develop into their voices yet. I continued speaking every year after that at my college to a group of freshman. I transferred to another college where I spoke at multiple classes and nationwide sexual assault events. I love to write poems so I created a series around my story to really help others feel the emotions that survivors go through. I got into modeling and created my own series around sexual assault. Slowly, I had people come up to me after each event and tell me how beneficial it was, how it meant a lot to them, and I realized that just helping one person changed my entire world. It brings me joy to help people and watch them transform. To teach them how to release trauma and help them live their lives.
Transformation
I took criminal justice and it opened my mind to the social service industry. My whole career was working with children so it seemed very fitting. I learned that trauma starts from the womb. Consent starts when we are young and it needs to continue through a life time. I have worked as a teacher in multiple sites in different states. I love the children between ages 2-4 because their creative minds wonder so far. I learned more about life working with them than I ever did from another adult. This was when I began to change the world. I started with the children. Listening to them and their true inner wants and needs. Teaching them how to explore and communicate emotions. It was then, I realized that adults even at the age of 60 don’t know these things and it’s because they were never taught in school or from their parents. I have worked in emergency shelters for victims of domestic violence, at a juvenile treatment center with girls from the ages of 14-18, at a holistic treatment center(hosted addicts and other issues), I have worked with sex trafficking victims, and group homes. Men and Women. I created the first curriculum for the domestic abuse emergency shelter. The objective was to end abuse cycles because kids will re-enact what they see and hear. Remember, we only know what we know with the resources we are provided. I am so honored and grateful that so many survivors have let me into their life.
About a year after I graduated, I had just moved to San Diego, gotten married, gave up my dog, and lost one of my soulmates. I felt stuck. My whole world stopped. I was supposed to be celebrating this new marriage but I was mourning the loss of my ex-lover who had passed away. Do you ever just have one of those really close friends and there’s a period where you date on and off but it’s never official? Well, that was us. We met in the night life industry. He was a VIP host and I was a cocktail server and go go dancer. So we both played the double life very well. We lived in this fantasy world of other people. Fake relationships and fake lives. Watching people drink their life away, cheating on their partners, etc. We were the only real thing in the industry. We supported each other and found time to connect on a deeper level. Talking about our souls, desires and the deeper meaning of life. I was mourning the loss of who I used to be. I was heartbroken and unsure of whether I even wanted to be married anymore. I was struggling to find myself again. I felt extreme anguish. No one talked about his passing after the first three days. Everyone hid in their own silence. I was completely lost. I began to heal on my own.I become friends with grief. I explored death and learned about it. To not make it a stigma to talk about. To open space for others to join me and cry and laugh and express stories. I connected others and myself through grief. I watched myself metamorphosis into a butterfly.
I noticed my body started to talk to me and I became diagnosed with PCOS and a gluten intolerance. I spent countless hours at doctors offices doing blood work, ultrasounds, and testing only to be told that the only solution was birth control or metaformin. I felt let down by the western medicine system so I decided to learn the language of my body and take my power back. I now eat vegan, gluten free and paleo. I basically make all my food from scratch which can be time consuming but my body has never been healthier or felt better. I no longer have digestive issues, immune issues, and my PCOS symptoms have lessened drastically. This opened my mind to learn more about the womb space, my yoni and the connection it has to my body and well being.
When I moved to Spain, I found myself struggling to find inner peace. I felt like I wasn’t being honest with who I was and I needed to make a change. This is when I started to look inward at who I really was. I dove into the uncomfortable and honest truth of shadow work and inner child work. I also learned things about boundaries, communication, and tantra. I became a reiki master and Ayurvedic practitioner. I am so grateful for the mentors that continue to guide me through my journey.
GET TO KNOW ME
IN UNDER A MINUTE
Favorite season?
Winter & Summer.
I love the snow! and I'm a water baby
last place traveled?
Mallorca, Spain
Favorite book for healing?
Untamed by Glennon Doyle
I want to be real with you...
My awakening shook my world. In the best way possible. Just like you, I am evolving every single day. Healing is a continued journey. I am constantly shedding layers and meeting new versions of myself. It is a process of endless ego deaths and rebirths. A path that is not easy to take, but SO worth it.
I am here to hold space for survivors to heal in a safe space, feel seen, allow them to take up space, and guide them into their most powerful, courageous self.
I am not recommended for those who want a quick fix or to feel good. I am recommended for those who want the truth even when the truth hurts. For those who are willing and ready to put in the work.
Life is real and it’s meant to spent with the rawness of vulnerability.The purpose of this space I have created is to eliminate the need for survivors to search far and wide for the information and assistance they require to aid in their healing. I wish I had the life awakening guidance that I do now and I am so excited to share that with you. I can’t wait to see you embrace the here and now and step into a new reality you so well deserve.
My mission is to expand people’s understanding and consciousness so that, empowered with this knowledge, they can start to heal and lead deeply fulfilling, integrated lives. Although I specialize in sexual assault, shadow work, and grief. I also help women to find their authentic purpose as well as step into spiritual expansion by using feminine embodiment practices.
Thank you for trusting me. I am so honored you’re here.
